Nothing Without Him

I don't know what I do without Jesus in my life or what my life would be without Him. I have had a relationship with God for as long as I can remember and don't know who I was without him. He as always been a big part of my life. Being raised in a devout Christian home and having a brother who is a Senior Pastor in the Church of the Nazarene it has become a part of my everyday life. I am glad for the strong Christian upbringing I had, for my parents who have a strong marriage and the strength to cope with raising 2 children with special needs, and brothers who I get along fairly well with. I am thank for my sister Corrie who is watching me grow up from heaven who has been with me every stage of my life through in spirit. I can't wait to meet her someday and give her the biggest hug a sister could give! I have been though things most people would never have to go through. Most people don't know what it is like living with Turner Syndrome or how to come to terms with all of it's challenges. Most people don't what is like to develop an awful seizure disorder as a teenager or know what is like to have a seizure at school and having people make fun of you while you are having the seizure. To top it all of my seizures ONLY happen when I am really nervous and depressed or really tired. I am feeling awful even before the seizure. My seizures/tics are starting up again but now that I am older I can deal with it better. It really hurt me in high school. I will never forget how alone I felt when I had a seizure pop up in the classroom and hearing people laugh at me. It has really made me stronger and more compassionate but those moments still haunt me. God was the rock during that time and I don't know what I would have been like if I did not know him or have the personal relationship with him that I do. He helped me get through those turbulent years and made every situation beautiful in some way or another. I really saw how much my parents loved me and it made our relationship so much stronger. We were on that road together and they will always remember how far we've come together. God placed people into my life to mentor me, befriend me when I wasn't someone you wouldn't want to be around, prayed with me and for me and was willing to talk to me day and night. The peace God gave me at that time was really real. It helped me hold on to Him when I didn't want to. He kept placing people and situations that really kept me strong. What about you? What would you do without God. Wow were you without God. NEVER forget how far you have come and what God has brought you through. Remember who you were and who are you are now. Most of all, remember God, for He remembers you and calls you His beautiful child for which he is well pleased!