We usually associate wounds as being painful and very gruesome. If you watch the CSI shows you may think of blood splattered everywhere. What we are about to talk about is not physical but rather the emotional wounds caused by living this dark world. No matter how good our life, or what kind of home we grew up in, we have dealt with being hurt because life is not perfect
I was born on May 15, 1989 into a wonderful Christian family. As a matter of fact I was dedicated to God a few weeks after I was born! If I could have been born in a church I am sure I would have! When I was little I was a lot of medical issues and as a child I had too many surgeries to count. This made me realize I was not like the other kids. That, along with wearing the same clothes at age 7 that I wore when I was 4 and 5 because I wasn't growing. In the latter part of Elementary School the kids in the lower grades would make fun of me because I was shorter then them. My parents made church a priority as well as family devotions after dinner. Knowing God made it easier but recess was still my war zone and I DREADED it everyday.
As a teen, I was told the only thing I could do was work at a hotel folding towels. This hurt my parents and I deeply. I saw my mom cry more then once because of it. She hated seeing the impact it was having me and was frustrated no one could see me the way she and my dad could. What I was told as a teenager still impacts me today because I was told it so many times but I have learned to not give it and stand up for myself!
My parents and I took a risk and went against everything everyone told us. We knew what I could do and my parents wanted to teach me a valuable lesson about believing in myself and standing up for myself. I applied for Vocational School and ALWAYS got A's and Honors! I completed my training in Early Childhood Ed and got my degree which my parents and I were told would never happen. They said it would be to hard for me to finish and get my degree. It obviously wasn't because I always got A's and people would come up to me regularly asking for help assignments! My Junior year I took a risk in taking a college-prep psychology course. I love psychology and wanted to take this class. I was determined to take it no matter how hard it was! I did REALLY well with it. I loved it and am SO glad I took it It was my best semester of high school!
We all have been hurt, lied to, and betrayed. The wounds will never go away even after we overcome the challenge. God helps heal the wounds but the scars are still there. The scars remind us of where we were and where God brought us from. The scars help remind us not to give up in future hardship.
These scars remind us of how faithful God is. He was always there and still is today! Without the scars and wounds of life how could we learn of what true faith in God is? He bears scars just like us. He has scars of love on his hands caused by being nailed to the cross for OUR sins. He understands our pain! Bear your scars with the pride of all that God is and where he brought you from!
Tuesday, October 27, 2009
Tuesday, October 20, 2009
God's Way Vs Our Way
Isaiah 55: 8-11 (The Message)
"I don't think the way you think. The way you work isn't the way I work." God's Decree.
"For as the sky soars high above earth, so the way I work surpasses the way you work, and the way I think is beyond the way you think. Just as rain and snow descend from the skies and don't go back until they've watered the earth, Doing their work of making things grow and blossom, producing seed for farmers and food for the hungry, So will the words that come out of my mouth not come back empty-handed. They'll do the work I sent them to do, they'll complete the assignment I gave them
How comforting are the words we read above! How often do we wish we had all the answers and get frustrated when we can't find them? We don't have to understand everything or are even expected to! The Creator of this universe, the same Creator who created us, knows what He is doing! He placed you and I where we are right now as part of His great plan for our lives. He places EVERY situation and person in our life for a reason.
From a very age, I have had to learn to accept the way God made me. I had to accept the fact that I would always be short and not like the other girls. I had to accept things no little girl should ever have to accept or deal with the feelings that I had and that caused me to grow up very quickly. In order for me to have peace and be able to cope with the cards dealt to me I had to accept the way God made me where I liked it or not. I am pleased to say that I now accept the way God made. Would I change things about me and my condition, Turner Syndrome, if I could? I would in a heartbeat but I found peace through Jesus Christ and His love for me.
I am currently learning that God's ways are higher then my ways and He know me better then I even know myself. While I may not always get what I want, I always get what I need, when I need it! God me me, I am His child. He will take me wherever I go and whatever I do. He will never let me out of sight.
No matter what is going in your life, remember God know what He is doing. We may not have the answers but God does. While His way is not always what we want, His way is best, and is always done with love. He always does what is best for us no matter who we are or where we are. Listen to God, spend time with Him. Let Him teach things to you and let Him show you what can be and who you can become.
God will reveal himself to you once you completely surrender yourself to His will. Once you place your total trust in Him, he will show you things, you never knew and give you abounding joy! So my question is are you ready to live God's way and live in total abandon to Him? After all, didn't He live in total abandon for you and the rest of man-kind?
Isaiah: 40:27- 29 (The Message)
Why would you ever complain, O Jacob, or, whine, Israel, saying,"God has lost track of me. He doesn't care what happens to me"?Don't you know anything? Haven't you been listening?God doesn't come and go. God lasts. He's Creator of all you can see or imagine.He doesn't get tired out, doesn't pause to catch his breath. And he knows everything, inside and out.
"I don't think the way you think. The way you work isn't the way I work." God's Decree.
"For as the sky soars high above earth, so the way I work surpasses the way you work, and the way I think is beyond the way you think. Just as rain and snow descend from the skies and don't go back until they've watered the earth, Doing their work of making things grow and blossom, producing seed for farmers and food for the hungry, So will the words that come out of my mouth not come back empty-handed. They'll do the work I sent them to do, they'll complete the assignment I gave them
How comforting are the words we read above! How often do we wish we had all the answers and get frustrated when we can't find them? We don't have to understand everything or are even expected to! The Creator of this universe, the same Creator who created us, knows what He is doing! He placed you and I where we are right now as part of His great plan for our lives. He places EVERY situation and person in our life for a reason.
From a very age, I have had to learn to accept the way God made me. I had to accept the fact that I would always be short and not like the other girls. I had to accept things no little girl should ever have to accept or deal with the feelings that I had and that caused me to grow up very quickly. In order for me to have peace and be able to cope with the cards dealt to me I had to accept the way God made me where I liked it or not. I am pleased to say that I now accept the way God made. Would I change things about me and my condition, Turner Syndrome, if I could? I would in a heartbeat but I found peace through Jesus Christ and His love for me.
I am currently learning that God's ways are higher then my ways and He know me better then I even know myself. While I may not always get what I want, I always get what I need, when I need it! God me me, I am His child. He will take me wherever I go and whatever I do. He will never let me out of sight.
No matter what is going in your life, remember God know what He is doing. We may not have the answers but God does. While His way is not always what we want, His way is best, and is always done with love. He always does what is best for us no matter who we are or where we are. Listen to God, spend time with Him. Let Him teach things to you and let Him show you what can be and who you can become.
God will reveal himself to you once you completely surrender yourself to His will. Once you place your total trust in Him, he will show you things, you never knew and give you abounding joy! So my question is are you ready to live God's way and live in total abandon to Him? After all, didn't He live in total abandon for you and the rest of man-kind?
Isaiah: 40:27- 29 (The Message)
Why would you ever complain, O Jacob, or, whine, Israel, saying,"God has lost track of me. He doesn't care what happens to me"?Don't you know anything? Haven't you been listening?God doesn't come and go. God lasts. He's Creator of all you can see or imagine.He doesn't get tired out, doesn't pause to catch his breath. And he knows everything, inside and out.
Thursday, October 15, 2009
You Were There
I wonder how it must have felt
When David stood to face Goliath on a hill
I imagine that he shook with all his might
Until You took his hand, and held on tight
'Cause You were there, You were there
In the midst of danger's snare
You were there, You were there always
You were there when the hardest fight
Seemed so out of reach
Oh, You were there, You were always there
You were always there
So there he stood upon that hill
Abraham with knife in hand was poised to kill
But God in all his sovereignty had bigger plans
And just in time, You brought a lamb
'Cause You were there,
You were there
In the midst of the unclear
You were there, you were there always
You were there when obedience
Seemed to not make sense
You were there, You were always there
You were always there
So haven't I learned that my ways
Aren't as high as Yours are
And You alone keep the universe
From crumbling into dust
You are God and though we would
Not have understood You
There You were
Hanging blameless on a cross
You would rather die than leave us in the dark
Every moment, every planned coincidence
Just all makes sense
With Your last breath
You were there, You were there
During history's darkest hour
You were there, You were there always
You were the Victor and the King
You were the power in David's swing
You were the calm in Abraham
You are the God who understands
You are the strength when we have none
You are the living, Holy one
You were, You are and You will always be
the Risen Lamb of God
You were, You are and You will always be
The Risen Lamb of God
You Tube Video Link
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5R5jRz3IeMU&feature=fvw
This is song speaks to me EVERY time I listen to it. It comforts me to remember that the God who did miricals in the past, still does them today and it there with ME overseeing EVERY situation in my life!
When David stood to face Goliath on a hill
I imagine that he shook with all his might
Until You took his hand, and held on tight
'Cause You were there, You were there
In the midst of danger's snare
You were there, You were there always
You were there when the hardest fight
Seemed so out of reach
Oh, You were there, You were always there
You were always there
So there he stood upon that hill
Abraham with knife in hand was poised to kill
But God in all his sovereignty had bigger plans
And just in time, You brought a lamb
'Cause You were there,
You were there
In the midst of the unclear
You were there, you were there always
You were there when obedience
Seemed to not make sense
You were there, You were always there
You were always there
So haven't I learned that my ways
Aren't as high as Yours are
And You alone keep the universe
From crumbling into dust
You are God and though we would
Not have understood You
There You were
Hanging blameless on a cross
You would rather die than leave us in the dark
Every moment, every planned coincidence
Just all makes sense
With Your last breath
You were there, You were there
During history's darkest hour
You were there, You were there always
You were the Victor and the King
You were the power in David's swing
You were the calm in Abraham
You are the God who understands
You are the strength when we have none
You are the living, Holy one
You were, You are and You will always be
the Risen Lamb of God
You were, You are and You will always be
The Risen Lamb of God
You Tube Video Link
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5R5jRz3IeMU&feature=fvw
This is song speaks to me EVERY time I listen to it. It comforts me to remember that the God who did miricals in the past, still does them today and it there with ME overseeing EVERY situation in my life!
Monday, October 12, 2009
Attitude of Joy
I am recently learning how much joy is a choose, how joy is an attitude. There are things going in my life that are extremely stressful and burdensome. There are days when I do get depressed and feel like crying. I am strong most of the time but I have my weak moments like any person.
People have commented how well I am doing including my parents and doctors. I am really surprised also! I could be a lot worse off emotionally but yet I am still happy without even putting on an act. I honestly wonder why I doing so well but then I realize it is God working inside of me and giving me His strength.
I start remembering what I have instead of what I don't have and everything because more clear. I think about my family and friends who are always there, a personal relationship with God and having Him always by my side, a roof over my head, wonderful Christian friends at church. I think about who I could be now and to honest I don't even want to think about it! I could be a total mess right now but God keeps my heart and mind aliened with His will.
There are times when I get down and I don't even know why, and I remember it is my choice on how I feel. I can choose to stay down or find comfort in the arms of my Heavenly Father. I am responsible for my own happiness and cannot find happiness in people or material positions. I have to find it through my relastionship with Jesus Christ. It is something that has to take place in my heart. When I have joy and comfort inside of me it is something that radiates outside of me because it is God's light shining through me.
God wants us to live with an attitude of joy in EVERY circumstance of our life. He wants to be filled with His presence and His love. He wants us to depend on Him for he knows that is the only way we will have peace. He wants his joy to be our strength. He wants us to trust him with everything large and small. He wants us to have joy knowing that we are His children and nothing in this world can change that. He wants to find our joy in him and stop looking for it in the things of this world.
What are your pressure points? What are the areas of your life that you need God's strength? The joy of the Lord is our strength- not money, friendships, good grades, success, or even dreams coming true. Joy is from God and only God. We need to stop looking for it in all the wrong places. We need to let God take the wheel and give Him control of our circumstance. It is the only way to have pure joy! Are you ready and willing to live with an attitude of joy?
Proverbs 17:22 A cheerful heart is good medicine, but a crushed spirit dries up the bones.
Proverbs 15: 13 A happy heart makes the face cheerful, but heartache crushes the spirit.
People have commented how well I am doing including my parents and doctors. I am really surprised also! I could be a lot worse off emotionally but yet I am still happy without even putting on an act. I honestly wonder why I doing so well but then I realize it is God working inside of me and giving me His strength.
I start remembering what I have instead of what I don't have and everything because more clear. I think about my family and friends who are always there, a personal relationship with God and having Him always by my side, a roof over my head, wonderful Christian friends at church. I think about who I could be now and to honest I don't even want to think about it! I could be a total mess right now but God keeps my heart and mind aliened with His will.
There are times when I get down and I don't even know why, and I remember it is my choice on how I feel. I can choose to stay down or find comfort in the arms of my Heavenly Father. I am responsible for my own happiness and cannot find happiness in people or material positions. I have to find it through my relastionship with Jesus Christ. It is something that has to take place in my heart. When I have joy and comfort inside of me it is something that radiates outside of me because it is God's light shining through me.
God wants us to live with an attitude of joy in EVERY circumstance of our life. He wants to be filled with His presence and His love. He wants us to depend on Him for he knows that is the only way we will have peace. He wants his joy to be our strength. He wants us to trust him with everything large and small. He wants us to have joy knowing that we are His children and nothing in this world can change that. He wants to find our joy in him and stop looking for it in the things of this world.
What are your pressure points? What are the areas of your life that you need God's strength? The joy of the Lord is our strength- not money, friendships, good grades, success, or even dreams coming true. Joy is from God and only God. We need to stop looking for it in all the wrong places. We need to let God take the wheel and give Him control of our circumstance. It is the only way to have pure joy! Are you ready and willing to live with an attitude of joy?
Proverbs 17:22 A cheerful heart is good medicine, but a crushed spirit dries up the bones.
Proverbs 15: 13 A happy heart makes the face cheerful, but heartache crushes the spirit.
Friday, October 9, 2009
I Don't Want To Go
You changed my world
When You came to me
You drove a passion
In my soul down deep
Lord, to follow You in everything
I don't want to go somewhere
If I know that You're not there
'Cause I know that me without You is a lie
And I don't want to walk that road
Be a million miles from home
'Cause my heart needs to be where You are
So I don't want to go
So come whatever
I'll stick with YouI'll walk,
You'll lead me
Call me crazy or a fool
For forever I promise you that...
repeat chorus
Without Your touch
Without Your love
Filling me like an ocean
For Your grace is enough
Enough for me
To never want to go somewhere
If I know that You're not there
repeat chorus
YouTube Link
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=It8WXwr4ogU
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I want to follow God's Will for my life with all my heart, soul and strength. I don't want to go anywhere that is not within his will for my life. I know God's plans for my life are perfect and beautiful and He will guide me every step of the way. I never went to be apart from what God wants me to do. I will not go somewhere I know it is where He does not me,
When You came to me
You drove a passion
In my soul down deep
Lord, to follow You in everything
I don't want to go somewhere
If I know that You're not there
'Cause I know that me without You is a lie
And I don't want to walk that road
Be a million miles from home
'Cause my heart needs to be where You are
So I don't want to go
So come whatever
I'll stick with YouI'll walk,
You'll lead me
Call me crazy or a fool
For forever I promise you that...
repeat chorus
Without Your touch
Without Your love
Filling me like an ocean
For Your grace is enough
Enough for me
To never want to go somewhere
If I know that You're not there
repeat chorus
YouTube Link
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=It8WXwr4ogU
*************
I want to follow God's Will for my life with all my heart, soul and strength. I don't want to go anywhere that is not within his will for my life. I know God's plans for my life are perfect and beautiful and He will guide me every step of the way. I never went to be apart from what God wants me to do. I will not go somewhere I know it is where He does not me,
Sunday, October 4, 2009
Hold Me Jesus
Hold Me Jesus By Rich Mullins
Well, sometimes my life
Just don't make sense at all
When the mountains look so big
And my faith just seems so small
CHORUS: So hold me Jesus, 'cause I'm shaking like a leaf
You have been King of my glory
Won't You be my Prince of Peace
And I wake up in the night and feel the dark
It's so hot inside my soul
I swear there must be blisters on my heart
CHORUS
Surrender don't come natural to me
I'd rather fight You for something I don't really want
Than to take what You give that I need
And I've beat my head against so many walls
Now I'm falling down, I'm falling on my knees
And this Salvation Army band Is playing this hymn
And Your grace rings out so deep
It makes my resistance seem so thin
CHORUS
You have been King of my glory
Won't You be my Prince of Peace Jesus
YouTube Video Link:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SA6y_Ta7C2c
This songs is the cry of my heart. When I hear this song I see myself falling infront of Jesus and giving him all my burdens and cares. It is my prayer- now and forever. It is a beautiful song that means so much to me. It is so simple so powerful. Please hold me, Jesus! I love you!
Well, sometimes my life
Just don't make sense at all
When the mountains look so big
And my faith just seems so small
CHORUS: So hold me Jesus, 'cause I'm shaking like a leaf
You have been King of my glory
Won't You be my Prince of Peace
And I wake up in the night and feel the dark
It's so hot inside my soul
I swear there must be blisters on my heart
CHORUS
Surrender don't come natural to me
I'd rather fight You for something I don't really want
Than to take what You give that I need
And I've beat my head against so many walls
Now I'm falling down, I'm falling on my knees
And this Salvation Army band Is playing this hymn
And Your grace rings out so deep
It makes my resistance seem so thin
CHORUS
You have been King of my glory
Won't You be my Prince of Peace Jesus
YouTube Video Link:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SA6y_Ta7C2c
This songs is the cry of my heart. When I hear this song I see myself falling infront of Jesus and giving him all my burdens and cares. It is my prayer- now and forever. It is a beautiful song that means so much to me. It is so simple so powerful. Please hold me, Jesus! I love you!
Bound To Be Trouble
Bound To Be Trouble: By Rich Mullins
There's bound to come some trouble to your life
But that ain't nothing to be afraid of
There's bound to come some trouble to your life
But that ain't no reason to fear
I know there's bound to come some trouble to your life
But reach out to Jesus, hold on tight
He's been there before and He knows what it's like
You'll find He's there
There's bound to come some tears up in your eyes
That ain't nothing to be ashamed of
I know there's bound to come some tears up in your eyes
That ain't no reason to fear
I know there's bound to come some tears up in your eyes
Reach out to Jesus, hold on tight
He's been there before and He knows what it's like
You'll find He's there
Now, People say maybe things will get better
People say maybe it won't be long
And people say maybe you'll wake up tomorrow
And it'll all be gone
Well I only know that maybes just ain't enough
When you need something to hold on
There's only one thing that's clear
I know there's bound to come some trouble to your life
But that ain't nothing to be afraid of
I know there's bound to come some tears up in your eyes That ain't no reason to fear I know there's bound to come some trouble to your life
Reach out to Jesus, hold on tight
He's been there before and He knows what it's like
You'll find He's there
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I like this song because it reminds me I don't have to be afraid about wait happens next. It helps me remember it is okay for me to cry when I need to and I don't have strong all the time. I need to hold on Jesus as He is my hope! He is my light in the dark!
There's bound to come some trouble to your life
But that ain't nothing to be afraid of
There's bound to come some trouble to your life
But that ain't no reason to fear
I know there's bound to come some trouble to your life
But reach out to Jesus, hold on tight
He's been there before and He knows what it's like
You'll find He's there
There's bound to come some tears up in your eyes
That ain't nothing to be ashamed of
I know there's bound to come some tears up in your eyes
That ain't no reason to fear
I know there's bound to come some tears up in your eyes
Reach out to Jesus, hold on tight
He's been there before and He knows what it's like
You'll find He's there
Now, People say maybe things will get better
People say maybe it won't be long
And people say maybe you'll wake up tomorrow
And it'll all be gone
Well I only know that maybes just ain't enough
When you need something to hold on
There's only one thing that's clear
I know there's bound to come some trouble to your life
But that ain't nothing to be afraid of
I know there's bound to come some tears up in your eyes That ain't no reason to fear I know there's bound to come some trouble to your life
Reach out to Jesus, hold on tight
He's been there before and He knows what it's like
You'll find He's there
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I like this song because it reminds me I don't have to be afraid about wait happens next. It helps me remember it is okay for me to cry when I need to and I don't have strong all the time. I need to hold on Jesus as He is my hope! He is my light in the dark!
While I'm Waiting
This month I am going to share with you particular songs that speak to me. This is a song that speaks to me EVERY time I hear it. It really describes what is in my heart at this stage in my life. It almost makes my cry everytime I hear it. It makes me feel better. After the lyrics you will find a link to the music video on YouTube as well as my retrospective. This what will happen with most of the songs I will share with you.
While I'm Waiting By John Waller
I'm waiting
I'm waiting on You,Lord
And I am hopeful
I'm waiting on You, Lord
Though it is painful
But patiently, I will wait
I will move ahead, bold and confident
Takeing every step in obedience
While I'm waitingI will serve You
While I'm waitingI will worship
While I'm waitingI will not faint
I'll be running the race
Even while I waitI'm waiting
I'm waiting on You, LordAnd I am peaceful
I'm waiting on You, Lord
Though it's not easy
But faithfully, I will wait
Yes, I will wait
I will serve You while I'm waiting
I will worship while I'm waiting
I will serve You while I'm waiting
I will worship while I'm waiting
I will serve you while I'm waiting
I will worship while I'm waiting on You, Lord
YouTube Music Video Link:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Bb7TSGptd3Y
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I am just a 20 year old gal trying to find God's will for my life. I am waiting for Him and and His guidence and to find who I meant to be. This songs reminds me that I need to praise God while I am waiting and be confident and obedient to His call when He speaks to me. I plan to finish the race strong and I can't wait to see what God has in store for but until then I will wait for Him and praise for all He is and all he has done, is doing, and will do in my life. I thank God for all the people in my life who love me and pray for me and care for me and help me wait. I don't know where this road will lead me but I know God will make a way as he always has.
While I'm Waiting By John Waller
I'm waiting
I'm waiting on You,Lord
And I am hopeful
I'm waiting on You, Lord
Though it is painful
But patiently, I will wait
I will move ahead, bold and confident
Takeing every step in obedience
While I'm waitingI will serve You
While I'm waitingI will worship
While I'm waitingI will not faint
I'll be running the race
Even while I waitI'm waiting
I'm waiting on You, LordAnd I am peaceful
I'm waiting on You, Lord
Though it's not easy
But faithfully, I will wait
Yes, I will wait
I will serve You while I'm waiting
I will worship while I'm waiting
I will serve You while I'm waiting
I will worship while I'm waiting
I will serve you while I'm waiting
I will worship while I'm waiting on You, Lord
YouTube Music Video Link:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Bb7TSGptd3Y
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I am just a 20 year old gal trying to find God's will for my life. I am waiting for Him and and His guidence and to find who I meant to be. This songs reminds me that I need to praise God while I am waiting and be confident and obedient to His call when He speaks to me. I plan to finish the race strong and I can't wait to see what God has in store for but until then I will wait for Him and praise for all He is and all he has done, is doing, and will do in my life. I thank God for all the people in my life who love me and pray for me and care for me and help me wait. I don't know where this road will lead me but I know God will make a way as he always has.
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